Sleep early god damn it!

Its late night thoughts again. Totally can't sleep early for the past month, damn. Was reading about this article regarding celebrity dads on their views and lifestyle after becoming a dad. One of the comment made by this celebrity dad was that he told his kid not to lie but the next moment he lied and he had to explain why he lied to his kid. He said that the world of kids consist of only black and white. In relevance to his, it was varying degrees of grey. That sentence pretty much left me thinking as i proceeded on to read other articles.

As a kid, we only know we just had to do what our parents told us, everything was pretty much straightforward. We go to school to make friends, study hard to do well for exams, train hard in our cca to earn a spot in the school team, watch movies and hang out with friends like any other kid and etc.

Upon entering poly, everything pretty much changed. The world of black and white, sadly did not turn out to be full of colours, instead fading into faint grey. I went out working part time and saw more of what is the outside world. I met people, with reference to, where looks can be deceiving. At times i felt that i was fake too because i wasn't a person who like to hold grudges with anyone, and i had to pretend to be acceptable to people that i disapproved too. Over time, i just told myself, i could not please everyone. I would not even bother to make that extra effort to do so. Just look at the people around us now, who is 100% real, or even 70%?

I chanced upon this pretty amusing comic strip 2 days ago. It goes like, "Why do we even have facebook, twitter? Because we are afraid of being lonely." We follow each other's activities and what comes out? Pretty much nothing. To put it bluntly, sometimes we need reminders about others being worse than us so that we can self comfort ourself. Isn't that pretty sad?