i took a cab to skl on friday due to me being veri late. n so, i met an interesting taxi driver. tis taxi driver, was similar to me in some ways. was chatting to him throughout. found out dat actually hes quite a nice guy but he got alot of views abt the government. haha. he said dat he hated the government n etc. he drove through SPCA n he told me he jus adopted 4 guinea pigs jus the wk b4. adding on to dat, he said the government is going to tear down the place after the lease expires. he say its very sad n said the government got no "ai xin". the tings dat doesn make money for dem dey jus take it away. n he say SPCA the land is a small area nia n the government dun even bother to keep it. true to a certain extent?

another instance is when we drove past my hse nearby dere. den he was looking at a poster wif bak kua on the poster. i jus commented dat tis yr more expensive uh. den he said where got new yr den nid to eat bak kua. bak kua can eat anytime. same goes for abalone. does dat mean eating abalone will make u huat for the rest of the year? when i hear him say tis, its like, "wahs, tis guy totally same as me sia!" HAHA. dats wad i feel too. so wad if u eat bak kua n abalone on new yr? its like these stuffs r available throughout the year. but some ppl make so much hype abt eating it during new yr. like =.='' to me. he added on n said we shld treat everyday as new yr n live everyday happily. totally true to me ~

he went on n asked me whether i feel any hype frm new yr. i jus answered no. he said singapore losing the hype coz everyting is abt 'work n loan, work n loan'. he say singaporeans r becoming more like zombies coz we jus work like mad jus for the money n den pay loans. at the end of the day, we r jus like "dead". tis i agree wif him. even for me, an 18 yr old approaching 19, im starting to tink abt how am i going to survive in singapore in the future. the ting is, i haven even finish my poly studies! im worrying whether i got money to support myself in future. whether i got money for a car? a house? my own expenses? my wedding? like seriously. dey keep increasing the prices for house n COE. next time i tink i jus settle money for buying a room, n money for buying a wheel enuf liao.

alrites, slping in less than 10 mins time ~

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u came into my life n u left :(

i hav tis sucky feeling inside me which i tink culd make my brain explode.

:(

on tues nite, i was having mixed feelings in me. firstly, i was happie for one of my gud frens hu had a gf like finally. but after feeling happie, i started feeling abit gloomy coz i tot of u.

knew i'll be stuck in a shitty situation agn, i sms-ed my fren to come online n chat wif me. great dat it helped quite alot.

haix, tough times uh ~

pretty fast wk previously. 3 days of tests consecutively. tis wk got one test, which is abit better than the last.

hav been noticing sandara frm 2ne1 recently. shes pretty man! carn believe shes 26.

deep in thought. y did it cross my mind?

gona be a bz next two wks. jiayous to huever reads tis :)

urgh ~

i duno y tonite i feel so like abit nua n oso like veri hard to concentrate. tink i today too tired. slpt on the bus, reach home ler eat liao oso wan to fall aslp =.=''

its another nite when my mind is at its weakest state n u infiltrate my mind.
seriously i hate to tink bak. but if i can shut my brain n not tink bak, i wuld do it. i wished we culd talk out our feelings since its been one month plus since the break up. i hate tis feeling where we r nowhere here nor dere. i duno whether its affecting u coz its affecting me. the reason y im feeling all tis is not coz im sad or wad. coz its painful to lose smth i cherish alot. it hurts even more coz i had dreams which included u. both of us nids to be responsible for the break up in one way or the other. it doesn matter to me hu initiated the break up in the first place. it doesn matter to me now.