Self - Discipline

Self-discipline has been bad this couple of weeks. Adapting to a lifestyle of an employee is not easy. But it had been a great learning process though!

Sometimes, i wonder if i tried to hard to be the best i can, or i am trying to be perfect. Since there is nothing such as perfect, i guess sometimes i am setting too high expectations of myself. Of course, i do not fulfil my expectations everytime.

heart beat? heart stop?

work today was pretty shag, so when the train came n i saw a seat, i jus decided to take it.
was halfway through my journey n duno y, suddenly the thought of death came to my mind. it sort of took me aback. i wondered wad is the feeling when yor soul leaves yor body. i wondered wad will i be in my next life. i wondered wad if the moment u closed yor eyes, it was goodbye.

for a moment, i think my heart skipped a beat. next moment, i took a deep breath, knowing im much more fortunate than some people out there.

lonely lonely lonely lonely loneleh ...

i realised, after im single after november last yr, im still pretty much lonely. well, i guess i always was.

sometimes, it came to a point when u needed to call someone out for a meal or chill out. n it turns out, it was the same couple of ppl dat i used to call perhaps a year ago n b4. i mean, dats pretty sad isn it? so wad happens when these few ppl are busy? well, im left alone again. LOL.

perhaps ppl may find me boring or whatsoever. but ppl hu knows me well knew that actually im quite lame n not afraid of making a fool of myself personally. so, i guess not everyone is used to the way i behave n so on. sometimes when ur lonely, u tend to take a step back, n reflect. i tink of my actions, the way i treat ppl, the way i carry myself, the way i do tings, the way i think, the tings i say n etc. of coz not everyone will like everything abt u. but i guess humans jus behaves in a pretty predictable way. when u find a trait in tis person where u totally cnnt agree on, u jus list tis person as "hi-bye fren". we dun even go n discover the traits of tis person which might be similar to us, the "X Factor" which might make us khakis or "brothers".

humans r realli weird to some extent. we proscatinate, we backstab friends, we were never satisfied, we love, *or perhaps use a word more powerful like VERY MUCH LOVE?" to complain and so onnnnnnnnnnnnn *notice there is no full stop after the sentence because i tink humans got nv-ending grumbles*

so do humans understand themselves? to a certain extent i would say. i lived for 19 years and i have not decided on my career path yet. as a reminder, im already a quarter past the average lifespan of human beings.

Retarded?

Was at Wheelock Place just now and of course i passed by Boarders which had already shut down its shutters. What puzzled me was, why are people taking pictures of the already closed down place. Its just kind of a retarded action to me. Well, some Singaporeans are funny ...

An encounter with Sebastian Professional

Today, i happened to meet people from Sebastian Professional at my workplace, Camwerkz. it was really very coincidence because one of their personnel came to chat with me and i just asked him if he knows the brand Sebastian after listening roughly to what he does for a living. it turned out that he knew this brand and when he told me he was the Sebastian representative for China, i was quite stunned actually. after telling him i actually uses their clay for hair-styling, he introduced me to the representatives for the other countries. it was definitely a quite "malu" moment for me because i just could not believe my eyes. out of nowhere, these people are representing the brand of the clay i had been using for the past 3 years! to appreciate their thanks, they gave me one of their clay products which i am very grateful for!

I love their clay because it gives a very natural look and a pretty good hold.
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branded goods.

i don't go after branded goods. they are for people to see. i find them meaningless.

-Singaporean footballer Shi Jia Yi

On a side note, it opened up my perspectives of branded goods.

Define nice?

The place quite nice!
The food very nice!
The movie very nice!

So, can anyone tell me what is the definition of nice?

One good example. During chinese new year period this year, The Green Hornet started screening in cinemas and i saw alot of people commenting that it was nice, on facebook. And so happen that a couple of my cousins are watching it during chinese new year day one, i went ahead to catch the movie with them after visiting. Conclusion, the movie was not as good as i expected. I mean, yes, Jay Chou's role was pretty not bad. But overall, i don't remember a "WOW" point in the movie. From this experience, i can conclude that the definition of nice of other people was greatly different from mine.

Another example. This is a highly personal choice of mine. I always prefer to dine in not so high profile restaurants because there always seem to be too much hype for the brand rather than the food itself. I would never understand eating steamboat in a shopping centre. The food you get for the steamboat is highly pathetic for the price you pay. Definitely a "no-no" for me.

Lastly, Starbucks is definitely not nice to me. The only drink i like from there would be Caramel Frappacinno (don't know whether spelt like this) but it is not a "DIE DIE" must drink for me. If i have the craving for it, then i MIGHT(still not a must) get it. But i cannot live without traditional coffee. Yes, it is cheap coffee but it is coffee which is made with effort.

For those who wants to label me as an uncle, be my guest. The definition of nice definitely differs from person to person. However, i believe most of the times, humans say something is nice because others say it is nice too. Monkey see monkey do isn't it? Haha.

knock knock.

a few wks ago, i went to walk the railway tracks b4 dey officially tear down everyting dat is left. overall, i realli enjoyed the experience. i stil loved the feeling of getting in touch wif nature. i borrowed a camera frm my workplace, took some fotos, which onli some turned out nice coz i realised im not realli patient in taking pictures. after awile, i jus wanted to enjoy the feeling of walking the trail.

yes, i hav not taken the train frm tanjong pagar to JB b4. however, when i visted tanjong pagar b4 it closed down, i saw it for the first time n quite liked the feeling of the railway station. compared to buses, i stil prefer the feeling of the train even though i have nv taken it b4. the train is smth where i culd feel a closer connection wif. compared to buses, u jus treat it like a mode of transport to another place. if i have taken the train, i guess i wuld love the sounds of hooting n scratching of the train tracks more.

i realised i hav a liking for old skl stuffs more. i prefer normal bakeries to breadtalk n atas bread shops. i like hawker food more compared to restaurants. i liked how anyone can eat at a hawker n do not tink abt dining etiquettes at the restaurant. i remembered a couple of months back i was having brunch at crystal jade at airport wif my family on a weekend afternoon n the moment i stepped into the restaurant, i thought i was at a wet market, or somewhere worse than dat. definitely not a veri pleasant experience for me. i wuld prefer going to somewhere nearby my hse n hav a simple plate of beehoon which tastes freakingly cheap n nice. i wun go to crystal jade n pay a few dollars for a bowl of porridge unless im sick n had no choice of food other than porridge.

i discovered tis wonderful coffee place at newton area last wkend. the place is so ulu dat i love the exclusivity of it. the main door is a backalley. dat was wad attracted me. it was small, perhaps abt the size of the flat im living in now, but i love the coziness of the place. well, i wun share it coz im so selfish n dunwan to let more ppl noe abt it. unless i feel ur worth my time n effort to bring to the place. wad an ass am i. LOL.

its the wkends agn! hav a little fun, work it out a little. enjoy the wkends :)

old injury

if memories are hurtful, shld we call dem memories?

i mean, memories are mostly memorable. so, memorable stuffs are mostly positive stuffs.

how abt we call it an old injury? an old injury doesn always flare up at certain instances, but sometimes it still does. jus like how old people's knees wuld ache whenever its going to rain.

#random thought that came to mind

Intern vs Student

Disclaimer: The following is just some of the thoughts and scenarios which will happen to anyone at internship. It is just some difference of being a student and being an intern. My internship company treats me very well and i have no complaints of continue to work for them, in fact i had just converted from an intern to a part-time staff. The company you get posted to might not be directly related to whatever you are studying. However, if you do not open up yor mind and treat it as a learning experience, you might as well not go for intern at all. Of course, the beginning was hard for me. A lot of stuffs i have never seen before in the company. However, over time, i started to blend in with the environment and definitely enjoyed myself pretty much! I met customers who are good and of course there are the troublesome ones. I even met some people who had taught in Republic Poly before!

The following is just a make-up of what you may go through in internship. It is definitely just for entertainment purposes. For those going to internship, "Welcome to the society :)"

Student: Today rainy weather so shiok for slping, jus pon school lur!
Intern: Today rainy weather so shiok for slping. *looks at clock, time for work. drags body up no matter how nice the weather is*

Student: Today lesson so boring, arbo we partial go watch movie more shiok!
Intern: Today like not much tings to do, but den have to wait until 6.30pm den knock off.

Student: Lesson so sian. *keeps msg-ing, msn, facebook, twitter* jitao chiong all the tings u can do on yor laptop to kill time.
Intern: Abit no mood for work uh, but bo bian must tell myself not to slack.

Student: We lunch break shiok shiok den go back dun nid do ppt liao. jus hag care nia.
Intern: Lunch is smth for u to replenish yor energy for the rest of the day until u knock off.

Student: wahs siao liao, wake up late! nvm lur, today dun go school lor :)
Intern: SIAO LIAO! LATE LIAO LATE LIAO! *immediately bathes n cab to office*

Student: Next week holiday lo!
Intern: All my frens holiday but i still having internship. cnnt go out n hav fun wif dem :(

*Do not be afraid of internship, just do your best :)