lonely lonely lonely lonely loneleh ...

i realised, after im single after november last yr, im still pretty much lonely. well, i guess i always was.

sometimes, it came to a point when u needed to call someone out for a meal or chill out. n it turns out, it was the same couple of ppl dat i used to call perhaps a year ago n b4. i mean, dats pretty sad isn it? so wad happens when these few ppl are busy? well, im left alone again. LOL.

perhaps ppl may find me boring or whatsoever. but ppl hu knows me well knew that actually im quite lame n not afraid of making a fool of myself personally. so, i guess not everyone is used to the way i behave n so on. sometimes when ur lonely, u tend to take a step back, n reflect. i tink of my actions, the way i treat ppl, the way i carry myself, the way i do tings, the way i think, the tings i say n etc. of coz not everyone will like everything abt u. but i guess humans jus behaves in a pretty predictable way. when u find a trait in tis person where u totally cnnt agree on, u jus list tis person as "hi-bye fren". we dun even go n discover the traits of tis person which might be similar to us, the "X Factor" which might make us khakis or "brothers".

humans r realli weird to some extent. we proscatinate, we backstab friends, we were never satisfied, we love, *or perhaps use a word more powerful like VERY MUCH LOVE?" to complain and so onnnnnnnnnnnnn *notice there is no full stop after the sentence because i tink humans got nv-ending grumbles*

so do humans understand themselves? to a certain extent i would say. i lived for 19 years and i have not decided on my career path yet. as a reminder, im already a quarter past the average lifespan of human beings.