can one :)

i noe im somewhere dere for tis month. coz i did more productive tings for myself. its time to make tings happen. dey will :) if dey didn, i noe i did my best :) keep going until results come.

put thoughts into actions.

16 days to the end of 2010.

16 more days to the end of 2010.

i arrived at the bus int to c the queue for my bus empty. i knew the bus had jus left. so being the first in queue, i knew its gona take some time for the next bus to come. rather than watching the buses pass by me one by one, i chose to use the time to go into reflecting mode.

all the way on the bus, i was reflecting, until i was abt to reach my bus stop. i tink of tings, the past, present n future. some problems were old, some were smth dat came to my mind today.

anyways, speaking of end of the year. im sure alot of ppl wuld hav plans on wad r dey doing on the last day of 2010. to me, last day of 2010 is jus like any other day. i dun feel extremely excited when the clock strikes 12 n den 2011 arrives. its like yea, everyone will go smth like, "its a new yr, new beginning n etc." or, "its going to be a great year!"

come on ... a new beginning can be any other day. a great year can start frm even a great day. its wad u do make a great year n etc. i bet most ppl wuld say 2010 passed by damn fast. yeaps, to me its fast. but r we like gona blame the calendar(if dere is tis character dat exist) dat it passed by too fast? "HEY CALENDAR, U MAKE 2010 ENDED TOO FAST! CAN U SLOW DOWN 2011?" like wtf _l_

n den ppl wuld be planning some new year resolutions. den at the end of the year dey will realise dey nv even fulfil one of their resolutions. or the better ones may fulfil a couple of their resolutions.

come on ppl. quit talking n do wad ur supposed to do :)

1 year eh ... hmms ... not realli feeling great abt it.

sat was a pretty long day. felt like fainting at the end of the day.

slpt till close to 2pm on a sunday n went to bro's workplace n had japanese food wif family. great man, a long time since i had a meal wif my family.

come on, i noe im gona end 2010 great!

i dun care hu is gona shoot me dwn, coz im gona focus n create my own path.

get some results for myself.

2010 is gona end in a gud note.

tongue twisters in the library.

im sitting at the library n carn help but miss u.

as i sat dwn in my living room now, listening to a song, tinking bak ...

throughout the 11 months, when we had much problems at the start, a few times, inside me i felt like giving up a few times. for dat few times, i told myself to press on n tings wuld be better. i didn regret pressing on for a few times. at least i noe, the struggle was temporary, n den tings went bak to normal.

after 11 months, tings seemed better. n den it happened. i realli felt dat i dropped frm the sky.

the moment i took the lift dwn frm yor hse, i felt broken realli. i leaned back on the wall of the lift n dun dare to look at my reflection. i noe i look like shit.

*poop* dats the end ...