tis yr is pretty plain for me i guess. coz if i minus u, i carn realli tink of much for 2010. haha.

well, i got to perform for my parents at least. invited dem to my performance to show dem dat i always stayed out late to dance n not do stupid tings outside. at least dey enjoyed the performance :)

coming to midway of 2010, i made a decision. it was around july. dat decision made me give up dancing as an interest frm around august onwards. 4 months into the decision n i stil hav not looked bak on my decision.

2011 will onli be a gud year if i make effort to make it a gud one. wad i do today affects the result i get tmr. so wad i do on 31st december 2010 affects the result i get frm 1st january 2011 onwards n so on. so come on, make 2011 a gud one coz i wan it to be :)

this moment

listening to Nic Chagall's 'This Moment' now as i begin tis post.

last day of 2010. wows. wad a year. december last yr i started a chapter of my life wif u but sadly we culdn prolong the first step dat we took.

my first r/s gave me alot of insights.

1. i realised dat r/s is like a plant. u nid to constant show love n care for it to bloom. sometimes u giv it fertilisers to enhance the growth. but too much wuld kill the plant. the fertilisers r jus like surprises. too much surprises will kill the surprise once the surprises run out.

2. it takes two hands to clap. at first, i culdn realli figure out how tis sentence works. after a few months, i finally get wads the meaning. the guy/girl can be the most romantic n nice guy/girl in the world. but if the other party duno how to appreciate wadeva is present, the r/s wun work out.

the best example i wuld apply to wuld be quarrels. at point of times, one party wuld be the one at fault. the worst reaction for the other party to giv the one hu made a mistake was to get freaking pissed n harping on the fact dat the party made a mistake. in the first place, dere wuld be reasons to make one commit the mistake. if dere were reasons behind it, a couple shld help each other grow n change. harping on dat one mistake alone wuld not work. imagine a couple wuld be tgth for a few decades n u tell me ur gona keep harping on dat one mistake? come on, life wuld not be tis perfect. everyone makes mistakes during the path of life. the best solution is to help one another out. if its bad habits, give each other some time. some bad habits r stuck onto us for a few yrs or mayb frm young since. humans r veri funnie. sometimes we expect ppl to change overnite when ourselves we carn do the same.

3. stick tgth no matter how hard tings might seems. it sort of links to 'it takes two hands to clap'. in life, sometimes we went through shits n stuffs. during these times, some ppl wuld offer u a helping hand, some ppl wuld jus stand dere n gloat over yor misfortune. the most impt ting is, yor other half wuld be dere wif u no matter wad. i mean, dats the point of going through thick n thin tgth rites?

well, tis 3 simple points dat i culd tink of for now, is dat simple but can be as difficult as how the human mind wans it to be.

jus tot of a sentence myself last wk. it wuld be kind of offensive to girls, but the truth hurts rites.

"we were given a brain to think but not to over-think" i wuld apply tis to girls coz dey can always magnify a veri simple sentence to a veri complicated situation. haha.

well, i guess i shld end the post around here in case u start to infiltrate my mind n cause my thoughts to go havoc agn.

come on man. tis is not the time for u to come into my mind n disrupt my thoughts. urgh ~

wows, jus went to my skl email n found a pretty astounding piece of news. an assignment for my coming UT2. sui uh. LOL.

anyways, went to NEX last sat to find my ex colleague. gud to c her agn. haven seen her for around one yr ler ba. after dat i walked abit around NEX. den apparently deres tis taiwanese bubbletea store. being a singaporean, i jus went to queue although got abit of queue. coz i wan to c how different it tastes like frm KOI. in the end, more or less along the line lur. the onli difference dat the pearls r red in colour. it is frm a type of plant/fruit dat is called "luo shen kui" in chinese. "luo shen kui" itself is red in colour, hence the pearls being red colour. of coz tis type of plant/fruit itself got health benefits, dats y got selling point ma.

3 more days to end of 2010. wad u do today determines wad result u get tmr. a reminder to myself.

jus finished watching Masterchef on youtube a moment ago. pretty nice cooking competition by the americans. sometimes i thought to myself, when can singapore do smth close to dat? i mean, even their sound effects made u feel the 'standing on the edge of the cliff' feeling tgth wif the contestants.

its like singapore is doing great in the economy n stuffs. n i wonder where did all the money dat singapore generated went into. well, ok. i suppose alot of the money went to tourism. come on, u noe singapore wun survive without tourism. if not ppl come singapore do wad, buy spices meh.

my sister always tell me, ang mohs noe how to enjoy life one. compare to singaporeans, all dey do is work. i mean its ok to work. but other than working so hard, occasionally, we shld go n chill or smth wad. dun say go clubbing lur. clubbing so many ppl, squeezy n hot. seriously i duno y ppl like to go so much. go to some outdoor bar, listen to a live band n hav a drink chit chat, listen music, oso not too bad wad. if not go to the wad deal.com.sg lur. sometimes i c dey got some spa deals like so cheap. walao, if i got money i confirm buy den find one fren go do spa tgth. shiok wad. enjoy doesn mean nid go eat high class food or wad.
for me, an ideal day wuld be to start off wif a simple bee hoon or roti prata frm my hse dwnstairs. den read abit of newspapers at home. after dat go out watch movie, shopping, discover new places. den at nite hav dinner mayb at some far east plaza graffiti cafe eat wanton mee. den walk dwn orchard eat some pushcart ice cream. den find some place sit dwn tok cock. chill chill onli. haha :)

at times u stil infiltrate my mind n cause havoc inside my brain. i realli wish i culd filter u out easily but it wasn dat easy. the day dat u dropped me the bomb, its stil hurting me now. the previous day u were putting smiley faces when i told u i culd spend the whole sat wif u. but the next morning u gave me the bomb without any warnings ahead. i asked myself wad in the world were u tinking at dat point of time. i jus felt dat the smiley faces the previous day was jus a pack of lies. but at last the decision i made was based on logic coz i culdn keep letting yor emotions disrupt everyting dats happening. frm the official break up to the mentioning of patching up. it took jus two days. yarhs, letting emotions control wad decision u make. i choose to follow logic coz emotions can sway us to wadeva state we can be in n its wad destroys us.

shen bing uh ~

woahs, 4th day liao stil feeling sick. cui leh the feeling. holidays start in tis manner, ok lur to me. slp earlyyyyyyyy ~

nid to faster recover den can concentrate on doing my skl assignments. get it done n over den next wk dun nid so panic.

one more wk to end of 2010. 2 more days to SHEN DAN JIE. HOHOHO ~

can one :)

i noe im somewhere dere for tis month. coz i did more productive tings for myself. its time to make tings happen. dey will :) if dey didn, i noe i did my best :) keep going until results come.

put thoughts into actions.

16 days to the end of 2010.

16 more days to the end of 2010.

i arrived at the bus int to c the queue for my bus empty. i knew the bus had jus left. so being the first in queue, i knew its gona take some time for the next bus to come. rather than watching the buses pass by me one by one, i chose to use the time to go into reflecting mode.

all the way on the bus, i was reflecting, until i was abt to reach my bus stop. i tink of tings, the past, present n future. some problems were old, some were smth dat came to my mind today.

anyways, speaking of end of the year. im sure alot of ppl wuld hav plans on wad r dey doing on the last day of 2010. to me, last day of 2010 is jus like any other day. i dun feel extremely excited when the clock strikes 12 n den 2011 arrives. its like yea, everyone will go smth like, "its a new yr, new beginning n etc." or, "its going to be a great year!"

come on ... a new beginning can be any other day. a great year can start frm even a great day. its wad u do make a great year n etc. i bet most ppl wuld say 2010 passed by damn fast. yeaps, to me its fast. but r we like gona blame the calendar(if dere is tis character dat exist) dat it passed by too fast? "HEY CALENDAR, U MAKE 2010 ENDED TOO FAST! CAN U SLOW DOWN 2011?" like wtf _l_

n den ppl wuld be planning some new year resolutions. den at the end of the year dey will realise dey nv even fulfil one of their resolutions. or the better ones may fulfil a couple of their resolutions.

come on ppl. quit talking n do wad ur supposed to do :)

1 year eh ... hmms ... not realli feeling great abt it.

sat was a pretty long day. felt like fainting at the end of the day.

slpt till close to 2pm on a sunday n went to bro's workplace n had japanese food wif family. great man, a long time since i had a meal wif my family.

come on, i noe im gona end 2010 great!

i dun care hu is gona shoot me dwn, coz im gona focus n create my own path.

get some results for myself.

2010 is gona end in a gud note.

tongue twisters in the library.

im sitting at the library n carn help but miss u.

as i sat dwn in my living room now, listening to a song, tinking bak ...

throughout the 11 months, when we had much problems at the start, a few times, inside me i felt like giving up a few times. for dat few times, i told myself to press on n tings wuld be better. i didn regret pressing on for a few times. at least i noe, the struggle was temporary, n den tings went bak to normal.

after 11 months, tings seemed better. n den it happened. i realli felt dat i dropped frm the sky.

the moment i took the lift dwn frm yor hse, i felt broken realli. i leaned back on the wall of the lift n dun dare to look at my reflection. i noe i look like shit.

*poop* dats the end ...

aiyurrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i nid some peace in my life.
its been quite some time i realli hang out wif my frens.
been a little lost on some tings recently.
sometimes im happie, but other times im feeling quite shitty inside.
my management of time realli nids some learning.
how can someone be happie when hes being disturbed of his slp early in the morning everyday.
y shld i adjust my slp pattern to wake up more earlier.
y shld i even do the sacrifice in the 1st place, wth ~

let me hav a day of slp without any disturbance ...

......

everyting abt the future. im so uncertain n troubled by it. it makes my head real heavy jus by tinking abt it.

its the 1st week of YOG holidays n i carn seem to kickstart myself to even study abit.

history of arts for the past two wks has been pissing me off. i always arrive in class slpy n den i jus cnnt fully open my eyes until the end of lesson. the random-ness of the problem issued makes it worse.

i nid the 3 wks yog holidaes !!!

Y

how come ppl got the information wrong n im the one answering for it. y do i nid to explain myself times n over when im clear of my own answer. where is the concern dat i wan after a long n tired day? instead of jus QUESTIONS ...

stop n realise

i nid to organise my stuffs better so dat i dun lose some tings in life. its always hard to get everyting rite in the 1st place. but time is always waiting for me to organise myself.

thoughts ~

i jus feel, im bad at organising my stuffs. sometimes i wonder, isit jus me or i jus carn be bothered. i always woke up late for skl no matter how hard i tried. i told myself i wish to do some work in the skl library after skl but i always end up staring at the resources i found instead. sometimes is not i purposely do it, it jus happened. like how sometimes it wuld suddenly rain despite the sunny weather. i do curse the rain at times, but i nid the rain when its sunny for too long. coz it can jus change my mood for dat instant moment.

random update

in the wee hrs of morning, im stil drawing like an idiot. LOL. all thanks to the module chair for telling us jus 5 days b4 we nid to submit. n now the whole of School of Technology for The Arts students of Republic Polytechnic are drawing like bulls. its crazy ~

cough sux~

tis cough is realli shit to the max man.

ARGH~

wah sian. MOMENTUM coming den i tio throat ulcer, sibei sian man. den the doctor told me my fever came coz of the ulcer. now i cnnt eat all the spicy, fried food etc. worse is tmr n sundae i got bootcamp for hip hop ig. wah piang. i wan rest man. next wk got UT leh. go bootcamp how to study?! den following wk is MOMENTUM liao. veri siao man. hav to wait until MOMENTUM end den i got freetime. PERSVERE!!!

gona slp after typing tis post. todae had bboy lesson n i nid to get some moves real fast coz dey r needed for MOMENTUM. well, some of dem r abit hard but stil gona try it man.

tmr is history of arts lesson n its the best lesson for resting myself. its kind of a waste time lesson coz its quite pointless i tink. todae had drawing n overall was pretty ok as todae include abit of shading oso. shading to me is quite fun ah. but den halfway throughout the lesson realli abit sian liao. so i went out of the exhibition hall to get some fresh air. it feels kinda gud man.

mus rest well for the coming wks. pray dat i dun get sick at tis point of time.

off to slp! =)

BZ

woo, i hav a bz wk up ahead. tues n wed i hav dance lesson. thurs i hav the dance preview, fridae i hav dance lesson. sat n sun is hip hop IG bootcamp. oh god. im so glad at least i hav time to slp. LOL. hope next wk will be better =)

ok, todae like finally got ting to blog, n the effort to blog.

deres one ting i dun like abt my current schedule for skl now is dat everyting jus happens so fast. yes, alot of ppl is telling me now i veri shiok coz my class starts at 8 n ends at 12. so wad if it ends so early. i actually dun realli find it gud at all. coming early to class is one ting. den in the middle onli got 20 mins break. is like u go out buy smth to eat den nid to go bak n chiong for presentation alrdy. den its like we haven even research properly den nid to bomb all the tings we found for the presentation. it totally takes away the joy of learning man. everyting is happening in such a short time. like haven even process the information den nid to digest, realli damn rush.

ok, i jus finished ranting.

random ...

hmms, another wk has passed n my class stil like strangers wif each other. mayb coz got so many guys den everyone paiseh n jus kept quiet most of the time. next wk is gona be kinda cool coz im a spy. wahahahaha. shall kept mum abt it 1st =)

the 2 great movies like IP MAN 2 & IRON MAN 2 r coming out next wk. i guess everyone is looking forward to dem like me yea. hope dey dun disappoint us =)

finally deres some direction we r going for MOMENTUM. the preview we seemed like the most unprepared. malay dance jitao finish their choreo. other dance IGs all like not bad. modern dance was cool coz dey were dancing bollywood style. sounds cool yea? MOMENTUM tis yr looks like gona be a bang. hope the audience wuld enjoy it coz we performers put in alot of hard work yea =)

a random post

well, kind of sour now. nvm, no one nids to noe the details.

n so, last wk on sat i went to watch my veri 1st fuyo interskl bboy competition. it was pretty entertaining to watch it i tink. even though the standard is not as high as those international competition, it surely deserved a mention yea. sad to sae although my skl didn get the champion or top 4, a top 8 is commendable in my opinion. to be part of the top 8 out of 27 teams is quite an accomplishment yea. also mus congratulate my senior ashraf for winning the seven2smoke battle. i did feel quite proud for him coz he was representing our skl. of coz not forgetting my bboy instructor larry for organising tis event for the past few yrs. his objective is to raise the bboy-ing scene in singapore i tink n without him, all the participants wuld not get the chance to represent their skl n win honours for demselves n the skl. so, my instructor larry gets my respect coz he realli teach us alot of stuffs. frm bboy stuffs to non bboy stuffs, i tink he is realli a role model for me. *salutes*

hmms, im quite worried abt MOMENTUM actually. next wk is the 60% preview n we like haven do anyting. haix, i duno how can i help in the process in preparation for MOMENTUM. i realli hope dat it turns out to be a successful show.

n so, skl has reopened n the 1st 2 daes was stil not 2 bad. i look forward to an enriching semester ahead =)

AIRPORT

im currently at airport de mac now. later sending my fren off, hu is going to cambodia for volunteer work.

one to ting sae 1st. fujitsu sux coz the battery life runs out damn fast. to make it worse, the mac at chagi airport terminal 2 dun hav plugs. so later when the battery runs out, i will hav to find smth to do.

sitting alone here at changi airport, actually it isn 2 bad after all. the surroundings r pretty quiet. some ppl r mugging here oso. anyways, i plan to take the 1st train bak home later to save money on the cab.

haven been working for the past 3 wks ler ba. decided not to work ler. skl oso reopening in like 3 wks time. decided to not chiong work until like dat tis time round. will start to work when the next holidaes come. n of coz deres a price to pay for not working. dat means no extra money to spend. other than my allowance, when i go out, i try not to take money frm my parents. now i finally realise how come i can use up my money so fast. coz i hav bee using alot of my own money. if i hadn do so, i tink im able to save a couple thousand of dollars now.

tis holidae, if i work, i will buy some tings de. a pair of sneakers, some clothings. minus my dancing sneakers i bought last yr, it had been a yr since i last bought a pair of sneakers. adding on to dat, its been 2 yrs since i changed my specs, 1 yr since i changed my fone. specs n fone is like one yr change one time de. apparently it is not the case now.

was looking at HTC fones recently n found out dat dey got one fone is 4.3 inch the screen. its so damn big can. actually if i hav the ability i will but an iTouch and a HTC fone. i wuld not go for an iPhone coz its seriously freaking common. when everyone is owning the same ting, it becomes a toy, n i am 2 old for a toy. saw tis sentence in the newspaper when the iPhone jus came out. HAHA.

in all, tis yr mayb jus buy lesser tings ba. at the same time, will continue to work towards my goal b4 18 yrs old.

it is to go overseas alone wif my own abilities b4 i end my 18 yrs old.

P.S : the lady at McCafe looks quite chio. HAHA!

ytd went to catch alice in wonderland. i wuld sae its a better movie compared to the ones i caught recently. the way dey shot the movie was veri nice. deres tis cat in the movie hu keeps smiling and vanishing. the cat veri cute lar. haha. den deres tis mad hatter role played by johnny depp. i duno how he can managed to act dat type of role coz its a quirky character. haha.

some thoughts at the moment ...

actually shld be going to parkway wif mum todae but den she lazy go. haha. of coz lar, always take care of my niece until so tired. last time she can slp around 12 to 1 in the morning. nowadaes she slp at 11pm, like so early compared to last time. sometimes i can take care of my niece but den she always wana run around, make me tired oso. haix, sometims i wana help my mum but den i hav to be selfish to enjoy doing my own tings. its contradicting ...

hmms, later going to orchard to find a fren. after dat shld be going to c a few tings at orchard. like quite some time nv go out alone ler. tink shld hav some time for myself oso. although im alone, but den sometimes the feeling is better than being wif lotsa ppl. at least i dun hav to care abt other ppl n jus walk at my own pace.

walk awile den at nite come bak recap hip hop audition the steps.

gud luck to everyone for the audition =)

a little update .

hmms, todae is the audition for momentum. carn help but worrie abit. but den, gud luck to everyone for the audition =)

someone told a sentence 2 daes ago.

"hope we all can perform together"

n yes, i felt smth after reading the sentence. to put it simply, i was touched ...

jus a little update

Quest for Immortality - The World of Ancient Egypt

went for tis exhibition last wk at the national museum of singapore. it wasn such a large scale as i tot it wuld be. i spent less than a hr to walk through the whole exhibition. i went coz i was interested in the topic. its like history stuff but den huever noes, i dun like history but tis type of ancient stuff interests me more compared to wad hitler n WW2.

the exhibition is until april 4. if anyone is interested, deres an entrance fee of $15, but its free if ur a student =)

well, holidaes r here. spent the 1st 2 wks working for new yr period n got quite abit of money. not gona spend it so fast. perhaps get another job for tis holidae. den will spend abit after i got more money.

another performance is coming up. its a bigger one tis time. hope i can pull through but den hav to take care of my body n make sure i enjoy my holidaes at the same time.

HAPPIE HOLIDAES PPL! =)

happie =)

song ah. went to buy a few shirts on sat without me needing to fork out any money. haha. duno how long i nv spend other ppl money alrdy. always use own money to buy stuffs veri finance depleting ...

last wk of skl before UT comes. den needa tink of wad i needa do for holidaes coz its a long one. of coz dere will be one ting i focusing on ... *u noe , i noe* =)

wahs, todae bboy lesson realli siao. but den its realli gud for us in a way.

larry will be one of the most influential ppl in my life ...

wahs, one wk one post quite jialat eh.

anyways ...

tings have been better coz was not so hardcore dancing for some time. i started to reach skl earlier, although not everydae, but stil an improvement compared to the previous crazy late-coming-ness.

fridae went for my gud fren's bbq at east coast park after my dance lesson in skl. was quite tired when i left hse for the bbq coz i had skl earlier in the dae, dance lesson in the late afternoon, den stil hav to go for the bbq late at nite. but den coz i haven seen him in quite a long time, so i hav to go n show him the loyalty. hahaha. by the time i reach dere alrdy close to 12 am ler. didn manage to get a chance to tok to him den he jitao kena knocked out by his frens alrdy. although i helped u to drink abit, but stil not enuf to save u. but den, hope to catch up wif u more in time to come.

happie birthdae FH =)

the groove plays on =)

ok, basically tis wk went bak to dance lessons agn. gud dat i managed to find the groove bak =)

last sundae went to catch 'sherlock holmes'. pretty nice show wif all the suspense n mystery going on. sherlock holmes was an interesting character given his witty mindset. shall c wad goes on in the 2nd part =)

shall find some time to buy my new yr clothes mayb next wk or the wk after.

ok, like got nth to update liao. haha.

*stop* the groove was halted

ok, tis post will be totally abt how i was feeling abt dance the recent couple of wks ba.

debut showcase ended a month ago. after dat came holidae where i hav not been actively dancing. i told myself after debut showcase i wuld take a break frm dance.

hav been reflecting n asking myself quite alot for the past 2 wks or so. perhaps life went bak to the previous pace when dance was not so active n time was spent hanging out wif frens n doing stuffs i liked during my free time. dats y i somehow felt quite happie for tis couple of wks or so coz was mostly slacking. compared to the times preparing for debut, everyting happened so fast. a dae passed by like a min. my life was indeed veri fast paced at dat time n den i did not realli expose myself to the outside world. now dat the pace was bak to the normal n slower pace, i started to enjoy the tings happening around me.

its not dat im abondoning dance or wad. its jus dat i nid to take my mind off it for some time. dats the reason i totally skipped dance lessons tis wk. im planning to go bak for lessons next wk. i duno if its the rite time yet. but somehow i felt dat the groove was coming bak to me. i shall c whether my groove is speaking the truth.

*edited after reading giselle's post abt her feelings for dance oso*

perhaps most of the tings larry said had been right. (i hate to sae tis) the ig is jus dysfunctional ...

music bak on track, let the groove do the talking ...

jus some updates n thoughts

ok, im supposed to study for my UT now, but den i jus wana sae out some thoughts which has been on my mind quite some time.

last sundae went to p.skl fren hse to hav bbq n sort of early birthdae celebration for him. he jus moved frm a HDB flat to a condo. i stil prefer his HDB flat which is 2 storeys n more spacious. anyways, watched his frens (mostly all i recognise coz frm our sec skl) played the PS3 for most of the time n the experience of it was damn awesome due to the home theatre system. macham watching movie like dat. haha.

always damn tempted to own a gaming console when i go to fren's hse n c how awesome the games ah. but den my parents confirm wun get one for me coz dey will sae i will not be able to manage my time n will be addicted to it. i tink dey will sae smth like dat few yrs ago n the same ting in another few yrs. jus like wad dey said when i suggested installing cable tv. i noe im obsessed wif watching cartoon network when i was a kid but den i carn possibly be watching cartoon network now rites! LOL!

but nvm, i shall get a gaming console next time when i hav a hse of my own. if possible, i will hav a pool table oso. den can gather a few of my gud frens to my hse n hav some sort of gathering. kind of cool isn it? its smth which i hope will happen in a few yrs time ...

having alot of mixed feelings abt dance recently. shall tok more abt it when i hav abit of time ba ...

1st post for the year

ok, my 1st post for year 2010. so how did u all celebrate yor new yr? i guessed most of u all had fun eh?

*after 10 mins*

i stil duno wad can i include in my 1st post of the year ...

*scratches head*

ahhhh! the 1st person i met for new yr is ......... DE YOU!!!! hahaha. we met coz we didn go for countdwn n he came to eunos dere n we ate supper.

ok lar. i tink most of my frens shld be starting skl next wk. hope dat u all finish the skl year in a positive note eh? all the best =)

actually got some tings to type here, but den since i alrdy told it to someone, i guessed i jus hav to work on it eh ...